January 2003
by V.E. on January 31st, 2003
filed under anime/manga, evewasframed, personal, quizzes/surveys, school
January 26, 2003:
I got a new computer today! WOO HOO! I’m really excited, needless to say, but I now owe my father $110 more than yesterday because the deal was if he bought me a computer (and monitor and everything) I’d have to pay for 10% of it. Guess how much the whole thing cost? Hah. Yes, well. I like my new computer, even though it has nearly NOTHING on it right now. It has a DVD player (YESS!) and a CD-RW drive, so I’m happy for now. On another note, I watched the Gravitation OAV today and it TOTALLY ROCKS.. MUHAHAHA… Ah, yes. You can’t get any better than bishonen angst and yaoi. Wee. I love anime. And Japan. And whoever made up shonen-ai and yaoi. They should be a god. Right, all right. Maybe a demi-god, then. Not that either? Well, SOMETHING really important, dag-nab-it!
January 22, 2003:
Yes, so I’ve decided that I highly HIGHLY dislike reading other people’s blogs/ujournals/livejournals/deadjournals/whatever (even though I have my own version that I so lovingly call “Random*Thoughts”) because it usually gives me more of an insight to their lives than I feel comfortable having. Their “random thoughts” (as they will hence forth be called) tell me more about them than I want to know, you know? And for the record, I rarely read my own stuff, much less WANT to read someone else’s. I’m not sure what to make of what I just said, but you know, whatever. These are The Random*Thoughts, after all. I’m allowed to be random. Also, just so everyone knows: the anime Full Metal Panic is a rip off of Mobile Suit Gundam Wing, Evangalion, and Zoids. ARGGH. But after you get past that MAJOR factor, it’s actually a pretty good anime. Sheesh. Oh well. And also: I’m working on some New Year’s Resolutions, but I don’t really have any so far. I’m sort of waiting until after Midterms, if you know what I mean. I may be able to “breathe easier” then. I’m not really in the mood for anymore chatting, so that’s it for today.
January 12, 2003:
I hate the words “I love you” with all my heart.
January 10, 2003:
A survey for your enjoyment brought to you by a friend of mine. Arigato, Fruit Fly!
- If you could be instantly fluent in one other language that you currently do not read or speak, which would it be? Elvish, both Quenya and Sindarin. They’re similar enough to count as one, I’d say. And if not that, then Parseltongue.
- If you could have the starring role in any film already made, what would it be? “Star Wars: Episode IV, A New Hope”. Or maybe “The Neverending Story”.
- If you could receive one small package this very moment, whom would it be from and what would be in it? Let’s see… The Philosopher’s Stone, legend to have turned whatever it touched to gold and grant everlasting youth. And yes, it was the basis for the Sorcerer’s Stone. And it wouldn’t matter who gave it to me as long as I knew the person could be trusted with it’s secrecy.
- If you could own one painting from any collection in the world but were not able to sell it, which work of art would you select? “Starry Night” by Van Gogh.
- If you were instantly able to play one musical instrument perfectly that you never have played before, what would it be? Violin or cello, hands down.
- If you could possess one supernatural ability, what would it be? Reading minds or telekinesis.
- If you had to choose the most valuable thing you ever learned what would it be? As my sixth grade teacher taught me well, “Your greatest Power is your Power to Choose.”
- If you could have only one piece of furniture in your house, what would it be? Does a toilet count as furniture? If it does, then that, but if it doesn’t, then I guess a sofa bed.
- If you could read the private diary of someone you know personally, whose diary would it be? Someone I know personally? I don’t know anyone that keeps a diary or journal… well, one person, but he lets me read it when I ask him, anyway, so what’s the fun in that? I’d rather read my own history because I can’t remember a lot of it and it would be kind of nice to see what I was thinking at any given point in time.
- If you could have one person you know as your slave for one month, who would it be? No one. “Slave” is a little bit harsh, don’t you think?
- If you could choose the way you will die, how would you want it to happen? Either by lightening strike when I’m a thirty-five year-old multi-millionaire or not at all, so I could live forever.
- If you could wake up tomorrow to learn that the major newspaper headlines were about you, what would you want them to say? “Eve, Elected Star Of Tomorrow, Will Receive Lifetime Supply Of… Everything!”
- If you won the lottery, what is the first thing you would do? Pay off the debt I owe to my dad.
- If you could choose the music at your funeral, what would it be, and who would play it? “As I Lay Me Down” by Sophie B. Hawkins. My father would play and my sister would sing.
- If you could take away the vocal cords of any person, who would it be? I don’t think I could be that cruel towards someone. Do you know how valuable vocal cords are? Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, even when I think they should… rot in hell, so to speak.
- If you had to describe your idea of the perfect mate, how would you do it? Sit everyone down who wanted to know and have them ask questions so I could explain until they all (finally) understood.
- If you had to have a personal friend redecorate your house, whom would you pick to do it? Jason. I hope he doesn’t mind my using his name on the Internet. My apologies, if he does.
- If you had to choose the worst home you’ve ever lived in, which one was it? I haven’t lived in enough homes to have a grasp on the ‘worst’ one yet.
- If you could have prevented one thing from happening between you and a friend, what would it have been? My first dog’s death.
- If you could learn the total number of hours you have spent in your life doing one thing, what would it be? Sleeping. I do enough of that on some days for two people, but on most days not enough for half a person.
- If you had to describe yourself as a child in one word, what would it be? Melancholy.
- If you could own a single prop from any film ever made what would you choose? The book Sebastian found at the beginning of “The Neverending Story” that took him away from his world and into that of the Childlike Empress.
All right, well that’s all for tonight. Took a lot more brainpower than I have to use, so I’m going to go sleep now. Good night.
January 8, 2003:
I’m standing on a bridge. I’m waiting in the dark. I thought that you’d be here by now. There’s nothing but the rain, no footsteps on the ground. I’m listening but there’s no sound. Isn’t anyone tryin’ to find me? Won’t somebody come take me home? It’s a damn cold night, trying to figure out this life. Won’t you take me by the hand? Take me somewhere new. I don’t know who you are, but I… I’m with you. I’m with you. I’m looking for a place, searching for a face. Is anybody here I know? ‘Cause nothing’s going right and everything’s a mess and no one likes to be alone. Isn’t anyone tryin’ to find me? Won’t somebody come take me home? It’s a damn cold night, trying to figure out this life. Won’t you take me by the hand? Take me somewhere new. I don’t know who you are, but I… I’m with you. I’m with you. Oh, why is everything so confusing? Maybe I’m just out of my mind. It’s a damn cold night, trying to figure out this life. Won’t you take me by the hand? Take me somewhere new. I don’t know who you are, but I… I’m with you. I’m with you. Take me by the hand. Take me somewhere new. I don’t know who you are, but I… I’m with you. I’m with you. I’m with you…
January 7, 2003:
I don’t know what it is lately, but I’ve been feeling restless. Very restless. I have so much homework and other necessary things to do, but I never want to do any of it. Not that that part’s a problem… I usually never want to do homework anyway. But lately I’ve been feeling like there’s something more important I could be doing, even if I don’t know what it is. I suppose that’s why I’m writing here rather than doing something I should be doing, like finishing my Pre-Calculus, or working on my essay for English tomorrow, or working on that scholarship (for $60,000 no less — yes, I said 60) that’s due on Friday. Crap. I’m going to hell at this rate. No college will accept me… I have all right grades, but my SAT scores weren’t perfect and even though I do a lot of stuff… extracurricular, I mean… nearly none of it translates to paper to prove I haven’t been wasting my time and sitting on my ass these past four years.
Are you Seme or Uke?
Seme. Surprise there, ne? I think I was seme in the last “Seme/Uke” quiz I took, too. Hmm, interesting. Monte Carlo is this Saturday. At least I’m excited about that. I have a dress already, but I don’t know if I want to wear it. It’s really revealing… not in the sense, necessarily, that it’s low cut, even though it is that too, but it’s form-fitting, to say the least. And it’s bound to attract attention. Oh well. At least I’m going with a person I want to. And this is for reference, so I don’t forget. The person I fell in love with knows as much, but that’s not what I’m reminding myself. It was on December 18, 2002 that it happened, the night of Choral Department Holiday Concert. And that should be enough to remember, I hope. Argh, well, I’m not feeling well, so I’m going to go sit in front of my homework and force myself to do at least part of it.
January 6, 2003:
Hey everyone. My first day back in school this calendar year and I was surprised to miss a friend of mine more than I expected to… That is, until he showed up. :::Disgruntled sigh::: I suppose he’s growing on me, but don’t tell anyone, got it? Oi, yes well, we have no power (because of the Santa Ana winds at this time of year… felled some power lines or something) in most of my home town and it’s been that way for nearly twenty-four hours. Yep, now the generator that we’ve been using for the last three hours or so is about to die, so I have to make this quick. Basically, Happy New Years, everyone. And I got to go to Six Flags Magic Mountain last Saturday. I had a blast! Dive Devil is the best ride in the world, even though you have to pay extra for it… except perhaps that four-hundred foot bungee jump in New Zealand. That would be awesome to try too. All right, well, that’s all for now. I’ll let you know what’s what when the power’s back up.
January 2, 2003:
You finally get used to writing “2002″ on papers in school and what does the year go and do to you? It changes to 2003! Eeesh. I don’t think I’ll ever get used to writing THAT on the top of my papers… makes me feel so old. Well… Right, moving on. I got back from Texas this evening… sometime around 5 PM my time. I drove from Flagstaff to my house today… and I listened to most of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone on tape the entire way. Not bad for driving the entire way, ne? Anyway, whoever invented books-on-tape should be commended and awarded. GRIN. Not to mention Harry Potter is excellent anyway, but hearing it (with all the voices and etc.) is terrific.
All right, so the brief rundown of how my winter vacation went in Texas went about like this: (1) Went to see my cousin (my mother’s sister’s daughter) in Tempe, Arizona. She gave me some good smelling bath soap stuff for Yule… only it’s pink. Oh well, it turns white when it’s lathered and it washes off, so I guess I can deal. (2) Drove along a VERY scary road (why it’s scary to me is a long story… and I don’t have enough time to go into it now… or enough bandwidth) to get to my uncle (my mother’s brother) and aunt’s house, where I was expected to play with their one year old daughter who has five names (not three, like most normal people… five). Got to eat lots of tofu (yay!) and ride horses (YAY!). I love horses. (3) Stayed in a Best Western with the entirety of the Secret Service, who were really trying to look like tourists, but weren’t really looking like tourists anyway, for a night because The President wanted to spend a week on his ranch and has to take his bodyguards everywhere because it’s not safe anywhere. Have I ever told you how much I dislike Bush? Either one? Well, I do. Immensely. (4) Went to Grandma’s (my father’s mother) house and mowed the yard, cut down trees, and tore up cactus. Received $25 (which I spent on books… what else?) and a thank you for Yule. Grandma’s tough, but pretty cool. Also saw aunt (my father’s sister) who just achieved the rank of Chief Petty Officer in the Navy (“Go ask the Chief”) this past three months. Learned how to play a really cool domino game called “Chicken Foot”. Only catch: you have to play with a set of nines… rather than the normal set of sixes. (5) Went to aunt (my mother’s sister) and uncle’s place and received a reeeeeally nice set of luggage for Yule. Confirmed that my cousin (my mother’s sister’s son) is a total loser. Well, not a loser when he’s sober… except he’s never sober. And he stays out all night and brings his weird friends to meet me when I don’t really want to meet them… I’m polite, of course, and meet them anyway, but still. Left one day earlier than planned. (6) Visited Grandfather’s (my father’s father) grave on New Year’s Eve. Spent New Year’s Eve night in a hotel and had Sprite as a substitute for sparkling cider. But we got to shoot off lots of fireworks, which I’ve never done before, and I’ve fallen in love with sparklers. GRIN. Also watched the coolest episode of “Sex and the City” (or is it “Sex in the City”?) ever, called “All That Glitters”… All slash and yaoi fans MUST watch that episode… YAY! is pretty much all I can say about it. You’ll know what I mean when you watch it. (7) Spent last night in Flagstaff in the snow (COOL!) and the all time low temperature of the vacation: 23 degrees Fahrenheit at 2 PM in the afternoon, and it just dropped from there as the sun went down.
All right, so that’s about it. If you’d like a more detailed report, I’d be happy to let you in on more juicy details. Haha. Right well, since I left and come back, I’ve written two more stories, performed in my Grandma’s church with my sister, turned down numerous invitations to go get drunk with my cousin (the dumbass), watched Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone on television — twice, went to see Two Weeks Notice and Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets in the theatre, started learning Quenya Elvish, and bought a root beer every chance I had to buy one. And I got LOTS of Yule presents… a promise of a computer included. And I fell in love just before I left — or maybe I was in love before that, but I realised it then — and I’ve had time to think about that, too. I’m still in love with that person, but I’m afraid. Of what certainly, I can’t really say, just the whole deal of being in love, I guess. Yes, well, this is quite long enough for a Random*Thought, don’t you think? I do. Good bye for now.
