December 2004

Thursday, 23 December 2004:
Yule has passed. Christmas is the day after tomorrow. New Years is one week after that. I’m looking forward to watching my family open the presents I got for them. Also, I hope my parents let me go to New York City around the 5th (instead of around the 9th, like THEY suggested) because I’m really looking forward to seeing my roommate and boyfriend. I miss them so much! And I’m a little (okay, a bit more than a little) nervous about meeting my boyfriend’s family. I hope they like me. In other news, I had this dream last night in which a really close professor had a baby and then died, a lieutenant who was a friend of a friend drank himself to death and was found in him cabin twelve hours later, and I managed to see three of my four final grades for this last semester (an A, a B+, and a B)… I checked my ACTUAL grades this morning… only two of the four classes have been turned in, but my highest grade so far is a B-. Oh well, so much for my dream, right? It’s not looking too great for my other two classes, either. It’ll be a miracle if I don’t get Ds. So, my New Years resolutions are: go to every class every day, do all my homework on time, and earn a semester GPA of 3.2 or higher. Assuming I do the first two, the third should be within reach. Thankfully, I have a really great boyfriend (don’t let that go to your head) who has promised to help me… and I’ll help him, too, since our resolutions are the same (at least as far as I know). Okay, I think I’m done for today. Oh, and sorry about the really long update last time. Ciao.

Sunday, 19 December 2004:
Okay, so I’m officially home for Yule, Christmas, and New Years Day. I should be leaving for New York City on either the 3rd, 4th, or 5th of January. Must confirm that with my boyfriend, his parents, MY parents, and buy a plane ticket. W00t! I may actually finally get to see Rent on Broadway. In other news, I might get a tattoo from a friend for a holiday present. More on that when it comes up. Now, on with the answering of… stuff. I got most of these topics by googling “what do you think about” and then looking through the first 75 pages of responses. By far the most common completion of the phrase was “it”, “this”, or some variation of “my website”. Naturally, I left those out.

My answers to “What do you think about…?”

Stopping all your meds? That would be a really bad idea.
Christ? He’s cool. Apparently, he came to Earth and died for MY sins. I deny that I am that popular.
Smoking? No. Bad. And it’s not fun to kiss a smoker, either.
Drinking? Not gonna do it. Other people can if they want, but I honestly don’t understand why people need alcohol to loosen up.

Eating genetically modified food? Um, well… I guess that depends on who’s doing the eating. I’m not too keen on it myself, but if you want to, go right ahead.
Abortion? I don’t think I could get one if I was pregnant, but I’m not going to stop anyone else from getting one. I think I’d have to actually be in such a situation to really know what I would do.
Eating disorders? Hmm, not healthy, but treatable, just like any other disorder.
Rape? This one is complicated. I have odd fantasies of submission that involve rape-like situations, so I’m not really sure what I personally think of it. On principle, I believe it is definitely a bad thing.
Makeup? I don’t usually wear it, except for special occasions, and think it should stay that way.

Piercings? Whatever, as long as it doesn’t hinder your speaking ability or something.
Tattoos? I want one. Tactful tattoos can enhance a person’s body image. I don’t go for the “I have a tattoo on every inch of my body” thing, though.
Using the Sun as a source of energy? Um. Duh.
Princess Diana’s death? Tragedy, but I never knew her, so I didn’t cry over it.
Medicinal use of marijuana? Eh, I think in some instances, it should be used, but I can easily see marijuana prescriptions quickly getting out of hand.

The war in Iraq? No. War is wrong. Especially war for oil. You know why we don’t care about people in South America or Africa? Because there is no oil there.
Chinese people? I’ve got Chinese friends. They’re cool. They have saints and jerks in their race just like every other race does.
The proposed National Slavery Memorial Day? Who proposed this? Someone in the Deep South?
Love affairs? Are the parties involved each married to other people? Are they seeing someone else exclusively? If the answers are ‘no’, then fine, whatever.
Fahrenheit 9/11? Haven’t seen it. However, I know I’m more inclined to believe more of it than most Republicans.

Software testing? A good thing. We want the final product to work without the hassle.
Weblogs? I have one, so I guess I’m not that opposed to them. No guarantee I’ll read yours, though.
During sex? Hm, depends. And if I could come up with something, I wouldn’t tell you. Generally, though, if it’s good sex, I’ll be thinking about … sex. If it’s bad sex, I could be thinking a range of things, from home to schoolwork to what I’m going to wear tomorrow.
Amendment 36 to change how Colorado casts its electoral votes? EVERY state should do this.
Euthanasia? Hm… I think I have to look that word up. Mercy killing, eh? Well, if we’re talking about some old person who WANTS to die, and they’re over 60, then fine. It’s their choice, whatever. But for like babies with defects? No, unless it’s taysax disease.

Naming kids after their parents or other relatives? It’s okay, I guess. I’m naming a kid after me. I love my name.
War? Um. Bad. No.
Child labour? Well, child labour used to be the thing because we NEEDED the workers, you know? But in American society, um, it’s sort of like: no. I guess if they WANT to work it’d be fine, they just have to be able to compete with all the grown ups and not have a temper tantrum when they don’t get their way. Oh yea, and not be exploited either.
Athletes using steroids? If everyone used them, then I think it’d be okay, but some (most) athletes are honourable and don’t use them. Go them.
Our future as a technologically endowed telepathic species? Umm… What?

President George W. Bush? Don’t even get me started. Suffice to say, I don’t like the guy.
Child pornography? Again, this seems to be an exploitation problem. I mean, if they WANT to, then who am I to say no? Then again, when is a kid able to decide for themselves what’s best for them? Age 3? 12? 16?
Child prostitution? Now this is more clear cut for me. I mean, who ever truly WANTS to be a prostitute? I don’t think ANY kind of prostitution is all that moral, but honestly, I can’t stop adults from doing it. Kids shouldn’t have to.
Global warming? “People thought that they were just being rewarded.”
Stem-cell research? Sure, if you want to. I don’t see the big problem with it.

Homosexuality and bisexuality? YAY.
Gay marriage? YAY.
Gay adoption? YAY.
Harry Potter? Never read the books, but I saw all the movies so far. Decent, decent.
Y2K? It’s over. Nothing melted down or blew up, so who cares?

Artificial heart transplants? If it helps people live, then go for it.
Foamy the Squirrel? No. Foamy is not all THAT amusing, people, honestly.
The trend of turning books into movies? Shrug. I don’t care. That way I can get the jist of the story without having to read the book. Saves time for me.
Internet spam? BOO. Internet spam should DIE a horrible, terrible, burning death.
The phrase “survival of the fittest”? First thing that comes to mind is Darwin’s evolution theory, but really it’s more like dog-eat-dog on the stock market type thing today.

Cloning a pet? For $50,000? If I had the money, I would put it to much better use than that. But, yes, it’s an interesting idea.
Space? Like, what kind of space are we talking about here? Personal space, outer space, closet space? I like my personal space, outer space is cool, but oxygen-less, and closet space is AWESOME when I have it, and crucial when I don’t have it but need it.
The proposed curfew for NYC youth? Where I live there already IS a curfew (10 PM for kids under 18), so I have no sympathy.
Public libraries? Good, definitely good.
Public bathrooms? Bad, but when you gotta go, you gotta go.

MP3s? Good. I love them, and since that’s all my computer has on it, that’s pretty much all I listen to. I like mp3s because I can get a song I like without having to buy the whole CD.
Healing gardens? Maybe if I knew what those were, I’d have more of an opinion.
Music? I love music. I think we’d live in a sad, sad world without it.
Sexuality? Discover what yours is, and then be true to it. Trying to define yourself by society’s standards only gets you landed in a mental institution when you’re 35.
Trees? Um… yes, they give me oxygen to breathe, so I like them. And they’re pretty to look at, so that’s a plus.

Radon? Isn’t this a scientific element? Who cares about radon? Not me.
The sunset of the assault weapons ban? Well, I talked about it with some of my friends (on both sides of the argument) and I’ve decided that the assault weapons ban was pretty useless in the first place, so its sun-setting is no big deal to me. Now, if I ever actually get shot with an assault weapon, I guarantee you that my opinion will reverse.
Diamonds? They’re a girl’s best friend, after all.
Eyeglasses? I wear them, and some people think they make me look sophisticated. I think they make me look younger than I actually am, but whatever. Or maybe they make me look older. I don’t really know. Contacts, on the other hand, are lovely in the rain and snow, but are an awful pain to put in and take out.
The notion that God is concerned with our holiness, not our happiness? Quite possible, but certainly not a popular notion in today’s society.

Parasites? Boo. Yucky parasites. I’ve HAD parasites and they’re not fun at all. If you don’t have them, don’t get them. If you DO have them, get rid of them ASAP.
Reality TV shows? OMG, have you seen the new Real Gilligan’s Island thing? Man, that’s really sad. One episode was enough for me.
The NFL’s decision to had out 15-yard penalties for excessive celebrations? That’s a little harsh, don’t you think? I mean, they DID just score a goal or whatever. Give them a little slack.
Collaboration in songwriting? Eh. If you want to, fine. What really makes me mad is people who sing music they haven’t written, and then get paid big bucks because of it, ie: Britney Spears or just name someone and they’ve probably done it once in their life if they don’t STILL do it.
Men who wear earrings? Whatever floats your boat, man. Self expression is fine with me, as long as you don’t try to make me express YOU.

Secondhand clothing? Cheap and so good. They’ve already been broken in and there’s some cool stuff if you look.
Love? Wow, let’s not get into this now. See Stranger in a Strange Land, by Robert Heinlin, for details.
Transracial adoptions? Yes and no. I mean, being adopted by SOMEbody is better than not being adopted at all.
The decision to broadcast Timothy Mcveigh’s execution via closed circuit television to 250 victims of the Oklahoma City bombing? Wow. I mean, he was a bad guy, but that seems a little too much like revenge for my tastes. Then again, I wasn’t in the incident, nor did I know anyone who was, so I’m not really entitled to say.

Gothic chess? What IS this?
Girls who make the first move? Well, I’ve never made the first move unless someone has already specifically expressed interest, so I guess that means never. I can warm up to it if I’m already in a relationship, though.
Vinegar? Um… vinegary?
Teenage dieting? Not a good idea. Your body is still growing and needs all the nutrients that it can get. That does NOT mean eat whatever you want. But don’t starve yourself.
The importance of traditional values? Important, yes. Maybe even crucial. However, traditional values do not equal conservative values. When I say traditional values, I mean things like honour, a sense of justice, bravery, etc.

Baptists? Um, they’re cool, I guess. One of my parents grew up as a Baptist, but I can’t remember which one.
The Electoral College? SHOULD BE DISBANDED.
Parents using physical force to discipline their children? No. Never hit your kids. There is ALWAYS another way to solve the problem.
India’s caste system? Definitely not cool, but it’s their culture. Just because I don’t think it’s right doesn’t mean it doesn’t work.
What happened yesterday? I slept a lot. I went online for a while. I’m at home for winter break. So whatever that means to you, great.

The theory of evolution? Possible.
The Creation theory? Also possible.
Premarital sex? Hmm, on principle, no. In practice? At least be in college. Know what you’re getting yourself into and take responsibility for the consequences your actions have.
Youth skipping grades? Eh. I don’t care, it’s fine with me, but it could make the kid a target of abuse… being bullied and all that good stuff.
The death penalty? No.

Napster? It was cooler when it was free.
St. Valentine’s Day? Sucky if you’re alone, decent to excellent if you’re not. Last Valentine’s Day I was sick with food poisoning, so that wasn’t too fun. My roommate cleaned up my puke and everything. Yuck. I love her.
Japan? It’s where anime comes from, so that automatically makes it cool. Also, they take someone else’s invention and make it ten times smaller, ten times faster, and able to do ten times the number of things than it originally could.
Graphing calculators? I had a TI-82 in junior high and someone stole it from me during my science class. Now, I have a TI-83 Silver, but I don’t know where it is.
Arwen, from LOTR? Let’s see… She was cool, but Eowyn kicked way more ass.

Yourself? Depends on my mood, the angle of the sun, the phase of the moon, the alignment of the planets, where I am, who I’m with, and what I’m doing.

Thursday, 16 December 2004:
TEN Random Things About Me

1. umm, I’m a tad sadomasochistic and I bite. Many people can testify to this fact.
2. I love my Raggedy Anne doll and if you hurt her or take her away from me, I WILL hunt you down and make you regret it.
3. I’m a dog AND cat person.
4. I have more secrets than you know… even if you think you know them, more than likely you actually don’t.

5. I have interesting fetishes.
6. Hmm… looking back on what I’ve written so far, it seems to be more about sex than I anticipated.
7. My favourite colour is violet.
8. I’m in Kappa Beta Gamma sorority, Nu chapter, located in Pennsylvania.
9. I can speak English, Pig Latin, Doubletalk, and German.
10. I have long hair.

NINE Places I’ve Visited

1. Alaska
2. Tijuana, Mexico

3. Los Angeles, baby!
4. San Francisco
5. Times Square in New York City
6. Texas
7. West Hollywood (and you know what THAT means!)
8. Beverly Hills (um, yea, like THAT’s a big accomplishment)
9. Las Vegas

EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die

1. learn to fly, and then fly

2. write a bestselling book
3. happily marry
4. publish a book of good poetry written by yours truly
5. live in New York City
6. live in Los Angeles
7. sing, and sing well
8. learn to speak another language fluently

SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart

1. sing for me

2. write me poetry
3. be trustworthy and trusting
4. tolerate my OCD
5. play hard to get, but only a little
6. give me gifts
7. be honourable

SIX Things I Believe In

1. God
2. that all people are inherently good, or at least start out that way

3. it’s okay to rebel and defy others, but only when you truly believe in your cause, not just because you want to piss someone off
4. being brave is the greatest thing someone can be
5. helping other people when they ask for help is always a good thing to do
6. music, especially vocal music, is a gift from God

FIVE Things I’m Afraid Of

1. being left alone, especially after someone truly knows me
2. the wrath of a patient man or woman
3. losing my family
4. violence towards a person who is weaker than the attacker

5. asphyxiation

FOUR of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom

1. Raggedy Anne
2. my computer
3. my bed (I love you, bed!)
4. my alarm clock… without it, I would never get out of bed

THREE Things I Do Everyday

1. eat some kind of nourishment
2. pray

3. sing

TWO Things I Am Trying NOT To Do Right Now

1. eh… think about my grades this semester
2. think about what I’m going to do about next semester if I act the same way then as I did during this semester

ONE Person I Want To See Right Now

1. [name deleted for privacy]! And [name deleted for privacy], too… but I guess that’s two people. Oh well.

Viannah E. Duncan

Viannah E. Duncan is a writer and activist hailing originally from Los Angeles. She lives outside of Baltimore, Maryland, and holds an MFA in Creative Writing from Wilkes University. She has a cat, Cleo.

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