NaNo is done with.
by V.E. on November 6th, 2005
filed under health, ladyamedeus, nanowrimo, writing
Okay, so I’m dropping out of the NaNoWriMo race to 50,000 words in a month. I’m still going to be working on the novel that I’ve begun, but I’m not prepared to do it all in one month.
Last night I had a panic attack so bad that I thought I was having a heart attack. I’m not kidding. I thought I was going to die. I called my mom and she was like, okay time for a really hot shower, some Ativan (an anti-freak-out med), and some advil. I stood in the shower crying because my back hurt so much it made my entire chest hurt too.
I love writing, but I don’t love anything enough for me to do it after a sign like that. I have school and bills to pay and I don’t need something like panic attacks just “helping” me along the way.
I’m not disappointed. I’m listening to my body for once and it’s telling me, “This is too much–just wait a while and we can try again soon.” It’s not failure; it’s postponed success, and I can handle that.
