An angry list of a crappy day
by V.E. on March 29th, 2006
filed under ladyamedeus, personal, school
Wow. Today was really shitty.
- I missed my his360 class for the third time.
- I missed the class because I was late and the teacher’s already called me out in class and told me not to be late again.
- I have a problem with skipping classes when I’m already late because I don’t like people being mad at me, and though I’ve been working on it really hard lately (that is, going to class even when I know I’ll be late), this teacher and experience have set me back quite a ways.
- I think I’m failing that class and may have to drop out.
- I have a meeting with the teacher tomorrow morning about a presentation I’m supposed to give in his360 on Thursday and (1) I know she’s going to chew me out for doing so poorly and (2) if I give the damn presentation at all, I’ll have no idea what I’m talking about and may lead the entire class down the wrong path regarding my topic.
- I haven’t even started the reading for my presentation or the writing of a paper for another class, both due tomorrow.
- I got angry at Bennett for not taking the stupid dorm bomb threat seriously.
- He distinguished between taking me seriously and taking the bomb threat seriously, the former of which he says he does and the latter of which he obviously doesn’t.
- After hearing him talk for a while, I left Bennett’s room, still angry.
- When I called him after chapter to explain and perhaps apologise, he wasn’t available to meet with me, so he probably still thinks I’m angry with him.
- Being as stressed out as I am, there’s no way I’m completing the SELF Challenge, even though I really wanted to.
- I keep putting my physical health aside for school stuff and it’s really making me mad, especially since I keep getting sick and having to rework the school stuff.
- I’m worried about this breast thing.
- I called my dad this evening and ended up crying to him for and entire hour about my shitty his360 class and other issues, and other people saw me crying, which was mortifying in itself.
On the upside, I know it’s not the end of the world, and the only people who saw me crying were some of my Kappas. Still, though, today was pretty shitty. Aaaaand, of course, it’s not over yet. Plus, I don’t have time to do stuff tomorrow either. I’ll be just going from 9 am, when I’m meeting with one of my major advisors, to 11:30 pm, when Anime Club will end and I can convene next year’s officers to work on the 2006-2007 budget, which is due on Monday. I’ll barely even have time to eat–much less anything else–tomorrow, so don’t expect me to humour any kind of whining or drawn out conversation. Trust me, tomorrow, it’s not you, it’s me, and I apologise in advance if you try to catch me and I snap at you or ignore you all together.
Please don’t feel bad about crying in front of me, it happens to everyone. I have cried in public before (not just in front of friends), and not when I was little, like last year!
I hope things get less stressful soon.