“My condition, my status, is doubtless clear to you. Would it not be clear from the speaking of chains, and collars, and such? You may find it objectionable. I do not. I love it. In it I find my fulfillment, my happiness, my joy!; Perhaps you think what I am is degrading, and perhaps it is, but, if so, it is a delicious, precious, joyful degradation which I treasure, and in which I thrive and prosper, and one I would not, at the expense of my very life, have otherwise. It is a thing of softness, heat, devotion, obedience, service, beauty, and love. In it I am happy, and fulfilled, completely, perfectly, totally as a total woman, as I could be in no other way.” — Witness of Gor, p.101
This girl has been thinking about what it means to be a kajira, and (as before) she is not sure what to think. In light of the American Thanksgiving holiday, this girl believes that giving thanks for a good Master who knows her and knows what she needs–to serve Him–is essential. A kajira must submit in every way to her Master and to other Freepersons of His choosing without questioning His judgment or refusing to follow His commands. A girl must give her body to Him when He wants it (even if she doesn’t want to) and must give her strength, mind, and devotion to Him as well. A kajira gives her consent once–when she accepts her Master’s collar–and then she is His to do with as He pleases. She revels in her submission to Him and loves Him for dominating her as she so needs. In a kajira’s submission, she is fulfilled.
This girl is afraid she won’t be able to live up to her own definition of what she should be! She knows she is submissive, but she still likes some degree of freedom… that is, what is considered to be freedom in the traditional sense. But this one wonders–if she gave herself over to her submission, might she find greater freedom in serving a Master?