I can’t do it. I can’t do the Domina thing. I didn’t leave the dungeon mistress hanging, though; that’s not in my character to just skip out on someone like that, especially if I’m supposed be working for her (actually, it is in my nature to just run away, but I fight it everyday of my life… some days are better than others). So, I emailed her and let her know that I’m not ready for this kind of work (ah-hem) at this point in my life. Thankfully, she was sweet about it and even said that if I ever change my mind to give her a call. So that’s over with. Whew.
Don’t get me wrong: those women are awesome. They’re taking control of their respective sexualities and are assisting the clientèle to realize theirs in a safe, sane environment. Lord knows what would happen to “professional” men’s lives if there weren’t Dominas to whip them, spank them, and generally do deviant things to them in private… Not to mention their marriages. I know some women wouldn’t mind giving their CEO husbands golden showers, but not nearly enough. That’s not to say that there aren’t enough women to fill the need (as it were), just that I doubt there are enough women married to sexually compatible men, and visa versa.
I’m glad I’m not doing it, though. It’s not for me.
Soooo, I still need a job. I did, however get my school “refund” check in the mail from Wilkes, so I have a little money to work with before I go completely belly up. I say “refund” (in quotes) because it’s actually just what’s left over from my school loan–the part that didn’t go to paying the tuition.
Oh, and PS: Dark Angel episode “Fuhgeddaboudit” is awesome.