Daily Archives: Monday, 20 February 2012

a quick q&a

Your religious views? Complicated. Basically, henotheism.

Have you ever self-harmed? Why? Yes, I have. I did it because I wanted to feel something and it was, at the time, the only way that I could.

Relationship with your father? It’s okay.

Relationship with your mother? Also okay.

Who is your most loved person? I don’t have just one. I guess if I had to pick just one person, I’d pick myself. What? Don’t look at me like that; at least I’m honest.

Have you ever been bullied? Not… really? I don’t know. I think I would know if I had, so I guess not.

What is your sexuality? Fluid. Ask me about it sometime; I could write you an essay.

Who makes you the happiest? You have no idea how complicated this question actually is. I think the time I was happiest, I was with Bennett. I don’t know if that was him, me, or something completely unrelated, but there you have it. He’s also the person who made me feel the angriest I’ve ever felt about something over which I actually had control.

What is the most heroic thing you’ve ever done? Heroes don’t exist, and if they did, I wouldn’t be one of them. I have done nothing heroic. I’m not proud of that, but I’m not ashamed of it either.

What calms you down when you’re upset? Darkness. A safe place. Heat. Humming. The smell of books. Good music. Physical pain that is expected, constant, and dulled. Pillows and blankets. Whispering. Slow movements. Making decisions. Someone else reading me poetry. Hot tea, preferably Chai or Earl Grey. Control. If you’re really desperate to calm me down fast with little regard for the consequences later, a cigarette.

Have you ever fallen in love? Yes.

Had your heart broken? Yes.

Have you been betrayed in the past? How? I’ve been truly betrayed twice. The first time was a physical betrayal against my person. The second was a betrayal of confidence and trust.

Who do you miss the most? My waterbrothers.

Have you ever attempted suicide? Yes, though I was obviously unsuccessful.

Share a secret? I don’t share secrets; I taunt you with them.

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