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March 26, 2005

Gasp. A real, live update. Lucky you. Seeing as I haven’t updated until now since early January, I’m pretty much assuming that this site is winding down. Like poor Terri Schaivo, my little website is slowly dying of dehydration. That said, if someone feels like giving me an extra day of the week to work on this or maybe a whole boatload of money, feel free and in return I will certainly keep this site up and running. However, if I get no real protests to the contrary, I will be shutting [eve]was[framed] down for the forseeable future. That does not mean that this site is leaving the internet, it just means that I no longer have time for it and since it was created primarily to please myself anyway, I see no point in continuing something that no longer pleases me. There will be one final update following this one and then the site will become dormant indefinitely, assuming no one I know (or don’t know) has a real issue with it. I bid you all adieu. It’s been fun these past four and a half years, but sometimes you just gotta surrender to the changing times.

January 2, 2005

Sunday, 02 January 2005:
Es diese Nachte sehr regnet. Ich möchte sie. Und Sie? Coughcoughackcough. I dreamed in German last night. It was very odd, and it was hard for me to understand what the heck was going on for most of the time. Apparently, I know more German than I thought, but can understand very little of what I know… Or something like that. Moving on, I am now announcing that [1] I will be unavailable on Tuesday, 4 January (do not try to contact me; I will not respond) and [2] I am leaving for New York City in the very early morning on Saturday, 8 January and will not be reachable that day until late afternoon/early evening ET. You may, of course, always leave messages on my cell phone and I will reply when I have the time and proper readiness to use the phone. I am looking forward to seeing my boyfriend and roommate, and then going back to school. I got two Cs and two Bs last semester (I did NOT fail; YES!), so I’m still hanging on, and if I actually complete my New Year’s resolutions this year, my GPA will rise. They are as follows: [1] Go to every class every day, [2] Do all homework on time, and [3] Get a 3.2 GPA or higher for the semester. If I do well this coming semester, these resolutions will also apply to my fall 2005 semester. Please, everyone, pray for me and/or think positive thoughts for me, because I’m going to need all the help I can get with these resolutions. Thank you, and have a merry New Year and month of January. OH, I almost forgot. I need money, so if anyone has in mind a scholarship and/or summer internship that you think I would do well in, PLEASE PLEASE let me know about it. Thanks in advance.

December 2004

Thursday, 23 December 2004:
Yule has passed. Christmas is the day after tomorrow. New Years is one week after that. I’m looking forward to watching my family open the presents I got for them. Also, I hope my parents let me go to New York City around the 5th (instead of around the 9th, like THEY suggested) because I’m really looking forward to seeing my roommate and boyfriend. I miss them so much! And I’m a little (okay, a bit more than a little) nervous about meeting my boyfriend’s family. I hope they like me. In other news, I had this dream last night in which a really close professor had a baby and then died, a lieutenant who was a friend of a friend drank himself to death and was found in him cabin twelve hours later, and I managed to see three of my four final grades for this last semester (an A, a B+, and a B)… I checked my ACTUAL grades this morning… only two of the four classes have been turned in, but my highest grade so far is a B-. Oh well, so much for my dream, right? It’s not looking too great for my other two classes, either. It’ll be a miracle if I don’t get Ds. So, my New Years resolutions are: go to every class every day, do all my homework on time, and earn a semester GPA of 3.2 or higher. Assuming I do the first two, the third should be within reach. Thankfully, I have a really great boyfriend (don’t let that go to your head) who has promised to help me… and I’ll help him, too, since our resolutions are the same (at least as far as I know). Okay, I think I’m done for today. Oh, and sorry about the really long update last time. Ciao.

Sunday, 19 December 2004:
Okay, so I’m officially home for Yule, Christmas, and New Years Day. I should be leaving for New York City on either the 3rd, 4th, or 5th of January. Must confirm that with my boyfriend, his parents, MY parents, and buy a plane ticket. W00t! I may actually finally get to see Rent on Broadway. In other news, I might get a tattoo from a friend for a holiday present. More on that when it comes up. Now, on with the answering of… stuff. I got most of these topics by googling “what do you think about” and then looking through the first 75 pages of responses. By far the most common completion of the phrase was “it”, “this”, or some variation of “my website”. Naturally, I left those out.

My answers to “What do you think about…?”

Stopping all your meds? That would be a really bad idea.
Christ? He’s cool. Apparently, he came to Earth and died for MY sins. I deny that I am that popular.
Smoking? No. Bad. And it’s not fun to kiss a smoker, either.
Drinking? Not gonna do it. Other people can if they want, but I honestly don’t understand why people need alcohol to loosen up.

Eating genetically modified food? Um, well… I guess that depends on who’s doing the eating. I’m not too keen on it myself, but if you want to, go right ahead.
Abortion? I don’t think I could get one if I was pregnant, but I’m not going to stop anyone else from getting one. I think I’d have to actually be in such a situation to really know what I would do.
Eating disorders? Hmm, not healthy, but treatable, just like any other disorder.
Rape? This one is complicated. I have odd fantasies of submission that involve rape-like situations, so I’m not really sure what I personally think of it. On principle, I believe it is definitely a bad thing.
Makeup? I don’t usually wear it, except for special occasions, and think it should stay that way.

Piercings? Whatever, as long as it doesn’t hinder your speaking ability or something.
Tattoos? I want one. Tactful tattoos can enhance a person’s body image. I don’t go for the “I have a tattoo on every inch of my body” thing, though.
Using the Sun as a source of energy? Um. Duh.
Princess Diana’s death? Tragedy, but I never knew her, so I didn’t cry over it.
Medicinal use of marijuana? Eh, I think in some instances, it should be used, but I can easily see marijuana prescriptions quickly getting out of hand.

The war in Iraq? No. War is wrong. Especially war for oil. You know why we don’t care about people in South America or Africa? Because there is no oil there.
Chinese people? I’ve got Chinese friends. They’re cool. They have saints and jerks in their race just like every other race does.
The proposed National Slavery Memorial Day? Who proposed this? Someone in the Deep South?
Love affairs? Are the parties involved each married to other people? Are they seeing someone else exclusively? If the answers are ‘no’, then fine, whatever.
Fahrenheit 9/11? Haven’t seen it. However, I know I’m more inclined to believe more of it than most Republicans.

Software testing? A good thing. We want the final product to work without the hassle.
Weblogs? I have one, so I guess I’m not that opposed to them. No guarantee I’ll read yours, though.
During sex? Hm, depends. And if I could come up with something, I wouldn’t tell you. Generally, though, if it’s good sex, I’ll be thinking about … sex. If it’s bad sex, I could be thinking a range of things, from home to schoolwork to what I’m going to wear tomorrow.
Amendment 36 to change how Colorado casts its electoral votes? EVERY state should do this.
Euthanasia? Hm… I think I have to look that word up. Mercy killing, eh? Well, if we’re talking about some old person who WANTS to die, and they’re over 60, then fine. It’s their choice, whatever. But for like babies with defects? No, unless it’s taysax disease.

Naming kids after their parents or other relatives? It’s okay, I guess. I’m naming a kid after me. I love my name.
War? Um. Bad. No.
Child labour? Well, child labour used to be the thing because we NEEDED the workers, you know? But in American society, um, it’s sort of like: no. I guess if they WANT to work it’d be fine, they just have to be able to compete with all the grown ups and not have a temper tantrum when they don’t get their way. Oh yea, and not be exploited either.
Athletes using steroids? If everyone used them, then I think it’d be okay, but some (most) athletes are honourable and don’t use them. Go them.
Our future as a technologically endowed telepathic species? Umm… What?

President George W. Bush? Don’t even get me started. Suffice to say, I don’t like the guy.
Child pornography? Again, this seems to be an exploitation problem. I mean, if they WANT to, then who am I to say no? Then again, when is a kid able to decide for themselves what’s best for them? Age 3? 12? 16?
Child prostitution? Now this is more clear cut for me. I mean, who ever truly WANTS to be a prostitute? I don’t think ANY kind of prostitution is all that moral, but honestly, I can’t stop adults from doing it. Kids shouldn’t have to.
Global warming? “People thought that they were just being rewarded.”
Stem-cell research? Sure, if you want to. I don’t see the big problem with it.

Homosexuality and bisexuality? YAY.
Gay marriage? YAY.
Gay adoption? YAY.
Harry Potter? Never read the books, but I saw all the movies so far. Decent, decent.
Y2K? It’s over. Nothing melted down or blew up, so who cares?

Artificial heart transplants? If it helps people live, then go for it.
Foamy the Squirrel? No. Foamy is not all THAT amusing, people, honestly.
The trend of turning books into movies? Shrug. I don’t care. That way I can get the jist of the story without having to read the book. Saves time for me.
Internet spam? BOO. Internet spam should DIE a horrible, terrible, burning death.
The phrase “survival of the fittest”? First thing that comes to mind is Darwin’s evolution theory, but really it’s more like dog-eat-dog on the stock market type thing today.

Cloning a pet? For $50,000? If I had the money, I would put it to much better use than that. But, yes, it’s an interesting idea.
Space? Like, what kind of space are we talking about here? Personal space, outer space, closet space? I like my personal space, outer space is cool, but oxygen-less, and closet space is AWESOME when I have it, and crucial when I don’t have it but need it.
The proposed curfew for NYC youth? Where I live there already IS a curfew (10 PM for kids under 18), so I have no sympathy.
Public libraries? Good, definitely good.
Public bathrooms? Bad, but when you gotta go, you gotta go.

MP3s? Good. I love them, and since that’s all my computer has on it, that’s pretty much all I listen to. I like mp3s because I can get a song I like without having to buy the whole CD.
Healing gardens? Maybe if I knew what those were, I’d have more of an opinion.
Music? I love music. I think we’d live in a sad, sad world without it.
Sexuality? Discover what yours is, and then be true to it. Trying to define yourself by society’s standards only gets you landed in a mental institution when you’re 35.
Trees? Um… yes, they give me oxygen to breathe, so I like them. And they’re pretty to look at, so that’s a plus.

Radon? Isn’t this a scientific element? Who cares about radon? Not me.
The sunset of the assault weapons ban? Well, I talked about it with some of my friends (on both sides of the argument) and I’ve decided that the assault weapons ban was pretty useless in the first place, so its sun-setting is no big deal to me. Now, if I ever actually get shot with an assault weapon, I guarantee you that my opinion will reverse.
Diamonds? They’re a girl’s best friend, after all.
Eyeglasses? I wear them, and some people think they make me look sophisticated. I think they make me look younger than I actually am, but whatever. Or maybe they make me look older. I don’t really know. Contacts, on the other hand, are lovely in the rain and snow, but are an awful pain to put in and take out.
The notion that God is concerned with our holiness, not our happiness? Quite possible, but certainly not a popular notion in today’s society.

Parasites? Boo. Yucky parasites. I’ve HAD parasites and they’re not fun at all. If you don’t have them, don’t get them. If you DO have them, get rid of them ASAP.
Reality TV shows? OMG, have you seen the new Real Gilligan’s Island thing? Man, that’s really sad. One episode was enough for me.
The NFL’s decision to had out 15-yard penalties for excessive celebrations? That’s a little harsh, don’t you think? I mean, they DID just score a goal or whatever. Give them a little slack.
Collaboration in songwriting? Eh. If you want to, fine. What really makes me mad is people who sing music they haven’t written, and then get paid big bucks because of it, ie: Britney Spears or just name someone and they’ve probably done it once in their life if they don’t STILL do it.
Men who wear earrings? Whatever floats your boat, man. Self expression is fine with me, as long as you don’t try to make me express YOU.

Secondhand clothing? Cheap and so good. They’ve already been broken in and there’s some cool stuff if you look.
Love? Wow, let’s not get into this now. See Stranger in a Strange Land, by Robert Heinlin, for details.
Transracial adoptions? Yes and no. I mean, being adopted by SOMEbody is better than not being adopted at all.
The decision to broadcast Timothy Mcveigh’s execution via closed circuit television to 250 victims of the Oklahoma City bombing? Wow. I mean, he was a bad guy, but that seems a little too much like revenge for my tastes. Then again, I wasn’t in the incident, nor did I know anyone who was, so I’m not really entitled to say.

Gothic chess? What IS this?
Girls who make the first move? Well, I’ve never made the first move unless someone has already specifically expressed interest, so I guess that means never. I can warm up to it if I’m already in a relationship, though.
Vinegar? Um… vinegary?
Teenage dieting? Not a good idea. Your body is still growing and needs all the nutrients that it can get. That does NOT mean eat whatever you want. But don’t starve yourself.
The importance of traditional values? Important, yes. Maybe even crucial. However, traditional values do not equal conservative values. When I say traditional values, I mean things like honour, a sense of justice, bravery, etc.

Baptists? Um, they’re cool, I guess. One of my parents grew up as a Baptist, but I can’t remember which one.
The Electoral College? SHOULD BE DISBANDED.
Parents using physical force to discipline their children? No. Never hit your kids. There is ALWAYS another way to solve the problem.
India’s caste system? Definitely not cool, but it’s their culture. Just because I don’t think it’s right doesn’t mean it doesn’t work.
What happened yesterday? I slept a lot. I went online for a while. I’m at home for winter break. So whatever that means to you, great.

The theory of evolution? Possible.
The Creation theory? Also possible.
Premarital sex? Hmm, on principle, no. In practice? At least be in college. Know what you’re getting yourself into and take responsibility for the consequences your actions have.
Youth skipping grades? Eh. I don’t care, it’s fine with me, but it could make the kid a target of abuse… being bullied and all that good stuff.
The death penalty? No.

Napster? It was cooler when it was free.
St. Valentine’s Day? Sucky if you’re alone, decent to excellent if you’re not. Last Valentine’s Day I was sick with food poisoning, so that wasn’t too fun. My roommate cleaned up my puke and everything. Yuck. I love her.
Japan? It’s where anime comes from, so that automatically makes it cool. Also, they take someone else’s invention and make it ten times smaller, ten times faster, and able to do ten times the number of things than it originally could.
Graphing calculators? I had a TI-82 in junior high and someone stole it from me during my science class. Now, I have a TI-83 Silver, but I don’t know where it is.
Arwen, from LOTR? Let’s see… She was cool, but Eowyn kicked way more ass.

Yourself? Depends on my mood, the angle of the sun, the phase of the moon, the alignment of the planets, where I am, who I’m with, and what I’m doing.

Thursday, 16 December 2004:
TEN Random Things About Me

1. umm, I’m a tad sadomasochistic and I bite. Many people can testify to this fact.
2. I love my Raggedy Anne doll and if you hurt her or take her away from me, I WILL hunt you down and make you regret it.
3. I’m a dog AND cat person.
4. I have more secrets than you know… even if you think you know them, more than likely you actually don’t.

5. I have interesting fetishes.
6. Hmm… looking back on what I’ve written so far, it seems to be more about sex than I anticipated.
7. My favourite colour is violet.
8. I’m in Kappa Beta Gamma sorority, Nu chapter, located in Pennsylvania.
9. I can speak English, Pig Latin, Doubletalk, and German.
10. I have long hair.

NINE Places I’ve Visited

1. Alaska
2. Tijuana, Mexico

3. Los Angeles, baby!
4. San Francisco
5. Times Square in New York City
6. Texas
7. West Hollywood (and you know what THAT means!)
8. Beverly Hills (um, yea, like THAT’s a big accomplishment)
9. Las Vegas

EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die

1. learn to fly, and then fly

2. write a bestselling book
3. happily marry
4. publish a book of good poetry written by yours truly
5. live in New York City
6. live in Los Angeles
7. sing, and sing well
8. learn to speak another language fluently

SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart

1. sing for me

2. write me poetry
3. be trustworthy and trusting
4. tolerate my OCD
5. play hard to get, but only a little
6. give me gifts
7. be honourable

SIX Things I Believe In

1. God
2. that all people are inherently good, or at least start out that way

3. it’s okay to rebel and defy others, but only when you truly believe in your cause, not just because you want to piss someone off
4. being brave is the greatest thing someone can be
5. helping other people when they ask for help is always a good thing to do
6. music, especially vocal music, is a gift from God

FIVE Things I’m Afraid Of

1. being left alone, especially after someone truly knows me
2. the wrath of a patient man or woman
3. losing my family
4. violence towards a person who is weaker than the attacker

5. asphyxiation

FOUR of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom

1. Raggedy Anne
2. my computer
3. my bed (I love you, bed!)
4. my alarm clock… without it, I would never get out of bed

THREE Things I Do Everyday

1. eat some kind of nourishment
2. pray

3. sing

TWO Things I Am Trying NOT To Do Right Now

1. eh… think about my grades this semester
2. think about what I’m going to do about next semester if I act the same way then as I did during this semester

ONE Person I Want To See Right Now

1. [name deleted for privacy]! And [name deleted for privacy], too… but I guess that’s two people. Oh well.

November 2, 2004

I am writing this at 1:48 PM eastern time on Election Day. So, everyone who is legal and registered: VOTE!!!!! Everyone else: pray that Senator Kerry is elected so that we don’t have to deal with President Bush for another four years! I don’t think I could stand that. I live in a battleground state, but my home is in California. Go Cali for Kerry! I’m registered here, so my vote will count for more than it would there, since California is pretty much a Democratic state through and through… except for the whole Schwarzenegger being our Republican governor. Go figure. My boyfriend said that NYC is like that too… Democratic except for their Republican mayors. Shrug. I guess as long as it works out, whatever. Oh, by the by… I have a boyfriend. Just thought I’d let y’all know. He’s sweet and gives excellent back massages. He’s teaching me how to give massages so I can help people with back pain! W00t, go random yet useful skills! And, he likes anime. That’s awesome. Our personal beliefs are more in line with one another than my ex-boyfriend’s and mine. It’s nice not to be arguing all the time. Anyway, I went to all my classes today (all three of ’em!) which, let me tell you, is a serious accomplishment!!! I haven’t been to all three of my Tuesday/Thursday classes in literally a month. I’m working on not failing them. I’ve got one of my four classes (I have one on Monday/Wednesday too) down, no problem… will probably catch a ‘B’ in that one. But the other three… I think I’ll pass two of them, but the fourth… I’m really not sure. I might have to take another MSS (Mind, Self, and Spirit) course, which is a requirement to graduate. I reeeeeeeally don’t want to do that, but we’ll see if I can pull off passing once again. Also, I’ve given up on the idea of double majoring; I can’t even handle the classes I have now very well, much less add THAT kind of pressure onto my schedule. So, I’m majoring in English: Creative Writing and minoring in History. What I’m going to do with that kind of major after I graduate, I don’t know. I can’t think that far ahead without freaking out. Okay: breathe, Eve, breathe. One day at a time. So now I’m off to decide my classes for next semester. Gotta be optimistic, right? Right!

October 2, 2004

eXpressive: 2/10
Practical: 6/10
Physical: 3/10
Giver: 8/10

You are a RPIG–Reserved Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Rock of Gibraltar.

You are loyal, kind, thoughtful, and conscientious. You’re a good person. You make everyone around you happier and better, even if you yourself are not at your happiest or best. You just care so much about your friends and loved ones that you can’t help giving them everything of yourself. It can wear you out, but you’d never let on.

You’re successful, smart and fun to be with, but your self-esteem could use some boosting. You don’t like conflict, and you don’t like demanding things for yourself, so you can feel unappreciated. But then you wonder if you don’t deserve to be appreciated. You do!

You have many small crushes, but it takes you ages to get to a serious stage with someone. You get so caught up second-guessing yourself and worrying if the other person really *likes* likes you that you never dare to make the first move. Generally you end up with another clever RPIG who knows one when s/he sees one. This adds up to one long courtship. Fortunately this also adds up to one long marriage.

You would never cheat. You would never hurt anyone’s feelings. You are so sympathetic and give so many second chances that it takes a lo-o-ong time for anyone to get on your bad side.

Your only problem is you can be *too* thoughtful — you can end up worrying and getting hung up over nothing.

You may be a boy scout.

Of the 117306 people who have taken this quiz, 6.9 % are this type.
From: http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Relationship&page=1

September 2004

Tuesday, 28 September 2004:
I’m tired. As I write this, the clock is ticking from 6:42 to 6:43 to 6:44 and so on. And that’s in the morning. And for once I didn’t stay up this late… I woke up this early. I miss home and I’m lonely here without my roommate. I haven’t seen one of my friends here for over a week and I miss him terribly, too. But I refuse to make contact with him because last time he was over in my room, someone from his hall called him and he LIED about where he was to them… As if that wouldn’t hurt my feelings? Bastard. My pride won’t let me talk to him unless he talks to me first, but I miss him so much. It’s aggravating. It’s raining here a little bit. I missed my only class yesterday, and a meeting I really wanted to go to because I’m anti-social and just couldn’t get the nerve up to leave my room. I seriously think something is wrong with me, but I can’t pinpoint what it is. When I leave my room, I feel unsafe sometimes and I don’t like that feeling. Maybe I’m just becoming paranoid. I love my classes, but I just miss them a lot because I’m a loser. I don’t know what to do to make myself just GO. Crap crap crap. Why am I so dumb? Why? Fucking crap, man. Pledging, on the other hand, is going okay. The sisters and the pledges meet every night from 7 to 10 for study hall. Hahaha, I joined the smart sorority. The average GPA is 3.5, cool, huh? I have to go to class today. I MUST. And I WILL.

Sunday, 12 September 2004:
Sometimes I wonder what my life is coming to. Several things have happened recently… a couple of which I NEVER thought would EVER happen, and one about which I’m still unsure. Loneliness has driven me to do things I wouldn’t have ordinarily done. Yesterday was the first 9-11 anniversary that I didn’t feel any remorse since the event itself. I think that’s a good thing. We can’t dwell on the past forever. My job is going all right so far. I haven’t had to actually do much planning of events as yet, but that will change after tonight, I hope. I don’t like bartending much… there’s not much brain involved and it’s hard to do homework down there where it’s loud all the time. Pssh. I miss someone in particular, but I’m not saying whom because it’s against my policy of saying names blah blah blah. I know you think that I shouldn’t still love you, I’ll tell you that. But if I didn’t say it, well, I’d still have felt it. Where’s the sense in that? I promise I’m not trying to make your life harder or return to where we were. I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again. And I caused nothing but trouble. I understand if you can’t talk to me again. And when we meet, which I’m sure we will, all that was there will be there still. I’ll let it pass and hold my tongue and you will think that I’ve moved on. SO MUCH READING!!!! Too much homework, not enough sleep. That’s really bad because I sleep all the time. If I just DID my homework like a normal person, I wouldn’t have so much of it. I miss my roommate, too. Sigh. I’ve done some interesting things recently. Shakes head. There will be no white flag above my door. I’m not giving up, and I’m not giving in.

Saturday, 04 September 2004:
I fucking hate you all.

August 16, 2004

I’m almost ready to start writing again. I’ve been trapped in a drought for the past three or four months. It’s also been a depression. But I’ve slowly been climbing the hill and coming out of the desert. I’m going back to school in two weeks minus one day and looking forward to it immensely. I don’t know what the year has in store for me, but whatever it is, I believe it will be better than this summer. I’ve been getting back into Sailor Moon recently. I’m trying to create a Sailor Scout of my own to keep and maybe build a story around her. Wouldn’t that be the coolest thing in the world? To have my own little Sailor universe. I must think on that more soon. The proposed Fellowship of the Feet meeting has been a total failure. Only two people answered my email. I feel let down by the general Fellowship and am losing faith in my friendships with them. I mean, how hard can it be to hit the “reply” button and type something like: “Sorry, I can’t make it anytime next week. — Name”? It’s really discouraging and disheartening. On the upside, my near drop out has become null because the Fellowship has basically become null. Apparently. I don’t know what to think about the whole thing anymore.